On New Year's Eve 2010 I decided to finally start my own blog and now, two years later on New Year's Day I have decided that this is the end of this journey for me. It has been fun to record my life more or less publicly and blogging has taught me many things about life. One of which is the fact that recording everything you do is sometimes really hard and troublesome, at least for me and right now I just want to concentrate on living itself and not so much on writing about it. This is largely due to the fact, that I have less free time now, or actually I have more important things to do on my free time than blogging.
During the past two years I have realized how important it is, even for me, to sometimes just take time for myself, to do nothing, if I don't feel like it. Last week I realized it has probably been over a year since I've had time for just day dreaming and I realized how much I've missed it, how much I need it. Quoting a character in a book I'm currently reading: "Daydreamers alone are truly alive". The past year has been mostly survival for me. I have concentrated fully to achieve my goals and succeeded. I have graduated, found a job that I love, published a comic book, found a new home, adopted a new family member, started doing burlesque and managed to finally beat hyperthyreosis. Now that I have everything I could possibly want, I feel empty. I'm happy and proud of what I have become, but now it's time to enjoy the fruits of my hard work, and get to know the person who I have become along the way again.
As a sort of a new years resolution I promise I'll try to remember to enjoy the ride as much as the destination. I'll try to surround myself with things that make me happy, and remove things that don't, without guilt. I want to make art just for fun again as well as for some purpose, I want to read stupid, non educational fantasy books, play games: Skyrim, Pokémon, Magic the Gathering, pen & paper D&D, hang out with friends without a strict schedule, pet the cat as long as he wants, sleep all day, party all night, work overtime if I feel like it or take time off when deserved. This year and I hope from this year forward my aim will be purely on my happiness and I want to wish the same to you, dear readers. Thank you for your kind words, comments and everything. ♥
This is the end of this blog, but for those who still want to follow my life I still have profiles on Facebook and Instagram. Maybe I'll start blogging again in the future, I don't know, but for now I need to take time from somewhere and eliminate things that stress me. I don't quite know how to put this, so maybe I'll just quote someone wiser again:
The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.